Well, I'm writing this post as I listen to my son crying himself to sleep. It breaks my heart, but he's slept so little in the last few days, he needs the rest! And I've found that it's beyond my power to sooth him (unless I nurse him everytime he fusses...which is NOT happening!).
I'm about to go crazy with his current sleep schedule...or I should more acurately say LACK of sleep schedule. For about 4 of the last 6 nights, Ethan has been waking up about 4-5 times. A few times is because he has a wet diaper and others times is because he's rolled over. But lately, changing his diaper or rolling him back over hasn't helped. Neither has gas drops or rocking him a bit. When he starts sucking his fists like a madman, I give in to nursing him...and he's usually sucks me dry. But, I feed him like 9 ounces of milk before he goes to bed! And then wakes up 3-4 hours later hungry? I don't know...And he seems to also have the "45-minute intruder" at EVERY nap when he should be sleeping for about an hour and a half.
Anyway, I had (and still have...) a theory that he may have an aversion to nuts. I have been eating more mixed nuts than usually in the past few weeks and these crazy nights started about that time. I've also been eating more chocolate (thanks to the Easter candy sales...), which may cause his tummy to hurt, too. So, now I'm cutting out nuts and drastically limiting my chocolate intake, which isn't much at this point but still more than usual.
I feel like I'm about to reach an explosion point. I've been praying that God would keep my temper under control and He's helped me bite my tongue in several scenarios. I've also found myself been more rough with Ethan when he pulls my hair or when I can't decipher his cries. I'm so weak with my emotions from my physical tiredness, constant figuring out my children, and other needs I meet as a wife and mother. God never fails and that truth is my promise I hold to closely during these times.
Anyway, I've said it before...but mothering two small children is the hardest thing I've ever done. I don't know how you moms of more do it! God is gracious, that's for sure!
Well, Ethan is quiet, Mallory is sleeping, and it's now time for me to rest. *finally*