This weekend...

Well, I'm entering this weekend with mixed emotions.

I just said goodbye to my husband and daughter as they left for a visit to Charlotte without me. My mother-in-law's birthday was Thursday and we were supposed to go as a family to celebrate with Patrick's folks this weekend. But, since I've been so uncomfortable lately, I was really nervous about going down there and being miserable. I've had a couple of miserable days where it feels as though I've ridden a horse for 2 days straight! My pelvis has been VERY achy to the point where it hurts to sit and I can barely walk. I have my good days and bad days and then there's the miserable days...I find relief by switching positions often, not sitting on the floor (which is hard with a small child), not sitting, standing, or pushing the stroller for extended periods, not sleeping on the same side all night (I try to stay on my left for good circulation for the baby, but it's SOOO uncomfortable if I'm constantly on that side).

Anyway, we decided that Gram and Pops still needed to see their little grandbaby and Patrick was lovingly willing to give me a weekend at home to take care of "me" while he took Mallory over to his folks. This is the first time I've been alone since Mallory has been born and the first time Patrick has been the main person in charge of her daily care. I'm actually wondering what the heck I'm going to do with myself without her here!!! Though I'm SOOO thankful for the opportunity to rest, I miss my hubby and little girl...and they've only been gone for 30 min!!!

I'm praying that God will give me the self control to actually REST this weekend and not try to pack in a bunch of activities that I'd like to do but would cause me to be in pain. I'll probably hit a few garage sales tomorrow morning, go to the grocery store (childless!!!!), clean some odds and ends around the house, and watch football ALL DAY!!!! I might pick up a new book to read, crochet a few new items for the kids, and other things that will cause me to rest.

I'm praying that Patrick will enjoy his little girl this weekend. Since she's very attached to me, I think he'll like being her center of attention since Mommy isn't around. And Gram and Pops will probably like more of her attention as well.

Anyway, I'm about to head upstairs to the quietness of my house. I have no baby to kiss goodnight to, sing to, read to, or pray with before night night time. Sad. And I have no husband to sit with, talk to, or sleep next to either.

But, it will be very nice to have Melanie time. *sigh*